To Grandma with love

Grandma (aka - Nanny),

First of all I want you to know how much I love you. I know how frustrating it must be to be lying there in your hospital bed, not knowing when your last breath will be. The doctors said you had 12 hours, but you are doing well, still breathing and causing us all to wonder when you will breath your last. I know it must be hard to not remember how to talk - we can hear your moans as you try to form words. I heard you on the phone last night and it made me wish that I could be by your side. It must have been hard to hear your daughter (my mom) on the phone telling you good-bye for the last time. She wants to be by your side too, hopefully the storm will be over soon and she will be there. It must also be so hard knowing that your only son is miles away and today is his birthday, he is now in his 40's and wasn't supposed to live past his teens. What a day to celebrate! Last night as I laid awake in bed, memories of all my favorite times with you came back
-remember when I would come to your house when I was a little girl and you would open your change purse and give me everything you had and my mom would get so mad with you?
-remember when I got my license and I took you shopping? It took us a long time to walk through the mall because your legs were so bad but you enjoyed every moment of it?
-remember all the stories you used to tell me about your sons open heart surgery and about your sister who is deaf and too stubborn to get a hearing aid (you used to make me laugh telling that story - no matter if I heard it for the 100th time!)
-remember how you used to tell me that 'there is more sense in an empty purse' then was in your husband somedays? And how his mind is liked Bell Island 'Closed down'?
Then you got sick and you didn't remember who I was anymore. That made me sad. Remember that I brought my fiance home to meet you and you wanted him to sit with you on the couch as you told him the same stories over and over (that made my mom cry). I'm glad that you got to meet him. That was the last time that I got to see you. You would hide the television remote from us and tell the guy on the weather channel to 'shut up'. I'm glad we made the trip to see you then. God is going to take care of you and your pain will be over soon. You won't have to moan to let us know what you want. I'm going to be praying for you all day today, praying that you go in peace. I love you,

Amanda - your eldest grandchild.